New Year, Aligned Me ✨
As we approach the end of the first month of the year, I wanted to formally say Happy New Year my loves! 🥳 I’m hoping that 2024 has started off well so far. The end of mercury retrograde and the beginning of a new year has me feeling a bit reflective and so I wanted to take a moment of transparency to share with y’all a couple of things that have been weighing on my mind and my heart.
I started selfloveastro in 2020. Born out of the pandemic, the lockdown, the copious amount of free time to be creative and lots and lots of alone time to reflect on all I’ve learned about myself and astrology in the process. It was a passion project and outlet to be able to share with the world what I knew about the cosmos and how knowing this information could help us all learn about ourselves and make the day to day a bit easier to manage and understand and navigate.
I started doing events and readings and creating content and videos to inform of the transits and rituals to help prepare for them. It was great because it felt like something I needed at the time as well.
But towards the second half of last year I started feeling drained of my creative spirit and energy. I just didn’t have it in me to keep creating or posting and keeping up with all the transits to report on each one and also deal with my forever ebb and flowing journey that is my mental and spiritual health. It started feeling too much like a job, an obligation. Rather than an outlet of creative expression and inspiration. This unspoken pressure to be “viral” or to be trying to monetize my passion that is fueled by this hustle culture mentality that our society has.
I couldn’t really fake the funk anymore. Keeping up with the algorithms and the cycles of the universe was too much for me to handle. The internet can be an overwhelming and overstimulating place and that unspoken pressure of being seen feels misaligned for where I’m at in life right now. I don’t want to perform. I want to show up more authentically in 2024. And sometimes, for me, that means going dark. Being introspective, disconnected.
Now, don’t get me wrong. The passion for astrology is still very much in me. The passion for sharing knowledge and experiences and hosting events and creating content, it all still lives in me. I just know that I need to be more intentional this year in 2024 of remembering to honor my rest and creative cycles instead of trying to keep up with algorithms or posting because I feel like I HAVE to rather than because I feel called and inspired to.
One thing I’m getting more clear on about me is that I am not consistent in my energy levels. This is something that I am learning to accept and embrace about myself because even Mother Nature herself is inconsistent and unpredictable. So why would it be shocking or a problem if I am too? I naturally move through cycles of isolation and quiet and not wanting to be seen or socialize for months at a time to swinging the opposite direction in a different season and wanting to be seen, social and open. Like spring/summer and fall/winter. I move in cycles and phases, like the moon and hers. And it’s okay.
Anyways, all this to say that this year my page, content and events might be a bit sporadic, unpredictable, random, inconsistent or not in step with other creators, but know that when I do show up and post or when I do show up and host an event, it’s coming from an inspired place rather than a place of “shoulds” or the pressure to constantly be tracking the cosmic movements. And I’m hopeful that I’m reaching the right audience who understands this and can support me where I’m at.
I’m grateful to the people who support me no matter what and who know my heart and I appreciate y’all for coming on this journey with me. I want to keep sharing important astrology content when I can, keep sharing self love reflections as I move through the rest of my Saturn Return and just use this blog as the space to do so.
In 2024, I’m putting less pressure on myself to have everything be absolutely perfect and consistent and just let it be authentic instead. That being said, I am always open for readings and guidance and always down to help where and if I can. You can check my availability for readings here.
Anyways, that’s enough of my new year ramblings. If you made it this far, I appreciate ya for sticking by me. Looking forward to loving on myself in all the phases of my energy levels.
